.:.Everythings Here.:.

How scary is it, when you look into your future, nothing is certain. You don't know how you're going to end up. You don't know what you want to do. But even more scary, if you visualize your future and you see the person that you have now, in it. That you want that person, those people, in your future. You don't even know if THEY want to be in your future. Yet you hope they will. 

What's wrong with me?

Just because someone else has it harder than you, doesn't mean you can't have any feelings at all.  After all, we're all fighting our own battle. No? 

Sometimes, I hate myself. For all the things I did. For all the things I didn't do. For all the things I said. For all the things I kept inside. For all the wishful thinkings. For all the thoughts I put aside. For all the things I put people through. For all the nice things I didn't do.  Maybe a basket case. A liability. Maybe too melancholic for anyone to hold.  

I don't need the whole world to tell me I'm happy before I think I'm happy.  I don't need the whole world to say I'm worth it before I think I'm worth it.  I don't need the whole world to say I'm not perfect before I know I'm flawed.  I don't need the whole world to tell me we're special before I think we are.  I'm content. I'm worth it. I know I'm flawed. And I know we're special.  I'm not gonna go that extra mile to seek for anybody else's approval. I don't need them. But I will go that extra extra mile just because. Just because I know it's worth it. You're worth it. The people in my life, are worth going that extra mile for.

Sometimes, I hate myself. For all the things I did. For all the things I didn't do. For all the things I said. For all the things I kept inside. For all the wishful thinkings. For all the thoughts I put aside. For all the things I put people through. For all the nice things I didn't do.